If there is anything to learn from the Corona-virus, it is that it taught me all about what not to be. What not to do. What not to pull. What not to push. What not to try.
How not to behave. How not to dwell. How not to give in. How not to give up. How not to give away.
I pretty much replaced all the nutty not:s to a whole lot how:s. In other words. How to be gentle with myself. How to slow things down. How to pace myself. How to overcome my fears. How to rise above things
I learned not only that, but I also figured out all the What:s. What triggers me. What triggers others. What to keep. What to throw out. What to leave behind. What to bring into the future.
All these how:s & what:s rippled into great, if not my greatest revelations. They taught me how to love myself even when the world was in chaos. They taught me that I am as important as anyone else. They taught me about what’s important in life. They taught me how to value myself as a whole person with a complex personality and not just a broken one with dysfunctionalities as mine. They taught me how to be brave enough to move forward. They taught me how to forgive myself as those of others for the wrongdoings.
made by me and others when not knowing any better. They taught me to be a better person, mother, lover and friend. Not to mention a better friend to myself. They taught me that life itself is the greatest adventure of all times. They taught me to trust my intuition and rely on what it is that is so urgently trying to communicate through me. They taught me that I am as bad as I am good and that I am everything in between bad and good. And they taught me to be a badass after all and not to mention because of it all. Because my journey is as important as any others journey.
If there is anything Corona taught me, it is how I really do not want to live my life.
If there is anything corona taught me it is to learn a great deal about. What I don’t want. What I don’t need. What I cannot manage. What I don’t miss out on.
Corona taught me to expose every fear there is to expose.
What I fear. What I long for. What I appreciate. What I am capable of. What I wish. What truly matters. What doesn’t matter.
It gave me the opportunity to look into my own behavior and the chance to scrutinise why certain things and matters made me anxious.
And how they (the matters) affected me and made me behave in a certain way (especially the unpleasant ones).
GONG Jae Ok 