GONG Jae Ok

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Only the Universe knows what he has put me through. *

God knows what he threw my direction. I have been burnt

by the fire. I have been through hell on more occasions than

I can possibly count. Only the Universe knows how much he

tested me, kept pulling and pushing, beating the crap out of *

me. Not only to expand my horizon but also to make my inner

strength elastic to face anything, anyone anywhere graciously. *

And the most difficult thing was, surprisingly not the fire itself,

(though it scarred me for life) but to remain true to my authentic

nature through it all. The truth is that it hurts and you get so *

deeply burned when you play with fire. Fire is merciless *

and merciful at the same time. Fire eats you up, beats *

you up, cheat every chance it gets. Whatever he and

life threw my direction, I persistently, kept pulling

back, to become everything that I am not;

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I rose and overcame my downfall every single time. 

All my scars, I turned into the most beautiful imprints

in my soul. I wanted to feel it. Deal with it. Heal it. So that

I could make diamonds & pearly pearls of my tears of sorrow,

gratitude and all other sorts of fleety feelings & steering wheels.

Every day of the year. 

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All these years.
All those years.
Throughout the pain.
The agony.
The wretchedness.
The malnourishment.
For decades. 

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* My only response was pure love. *

* To act for love, to love and by love. I fought *

with my heart on a sleeve and my soul on a golden

plate. I became something of someone invincible & un-

defeatable through it all. What I didn’t know at the time,

all those years, & still do not fully graps the nature of is *

that guardian angels were sent from the Divine and Divinity

themselves. They sent me all sorts of blessings in disguse. Even

the guards to fear, pain & terror trembled with fear & shivered

when they encounterned me & all the earth angels that followed

along the guardian angels. And after them came Mrs Healing &

* Feeling. And then creativity showed up by the doorstep, by my

doorstep. For whatever reason, I still do not know until this day. *

But what I do know and understand by now is that love mends

* and heals everything everywhere and anywhere. Both love

and life kept pulling me back to earth down to my

whole being every single time I

thought otherwise. 

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Love is immune to it all,

all the bad things, stuff *

and life events that steered

you into the dark alleys and

dark shadows thriving only

from Mr. Ego & Mr. Greed.

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I think that it was love that saved me all those times when I wanted nothing more to leave this earth for all eternity ♥. 

Every single day. 

Every minute. 

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Every second my tormented soul wished

nothing but to leave my physical body.

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This is when I made a U-turn,

and changed my life for the better.

It was not over a period of time, it was,

rather, from one day to another. I decided to

thrive, rise and soar insted of merely coping and

surviving the day. I decided something fundamentally

equal as love. I decided to act upon kindness. I decided to

be not only kind to myself but also every human encounter

that I made, strangers as foes. Didn’t matter. Doesn’t matter.

Matters less and less. Matters more and more or is it more

more of the matter that matters. What does not matter

is the matter in itself. What matters to those who

care and what doesn’t matter to those who do

care. And kindness, neither neglect

nor forget.

To be kind.

To stay kind.

To remain kind.

To choose your words with kindness.

To choose kindness above everything else. 

To heal kindly.

To meditate kindly.

To be kindly brave.
To have kind intentions even
though you were the one who got
hurt, got in the middle.

To act kindly.

To laugh kindly.

To live and love with kind intentions.